It is in the silence that you will find God

I’m sitting in a boat,

mist drops, cold breeze, nothing.

It is silent.

The ocean rippled and roared.
I sat silently trying not to wince.

"It is in the silence that you will find God"

I gave up looking, striving, finding, searching
because I don’t know

what I’m looking for,

not sure what I want either.

Perhaps I simply want to find peace,

to be at peace with myself.

Even when the droplets of water start blurring my vision,

storms making me sick and cold,

even when I find myself alone in the boat.

I want to find my soul settled,

when I dip my head into deep waters,

hold my breath and let go.